How Dare You

The dreams become real.

The screams inside explode.

How dare you?

She's my heart and soul.

Moons and laughter.

Giggles and stars.

Push me higher,

 Mommie!

Milky way kisses 

Patty cake hugs

Yes, My angel 

you're the one 

Mommie loves

Where do you go from here?

Where do you go from here?

By Ramona Coulter

June 11, 2008

Where do you go from here?

 Looking back it is all a dream.

Unimaginable and unexplained.   

Not knowing what to do. 

Why did it end so soon?

When you were given one more chance to

 To be the Mother they needed so.

Then out of the blue Jesus took them both. 

In a blink of an eye you’re lost again.

Where do you go from here?

All you have are memories of their final days.

When you were the mother they needed for

 So long.

They forgave you from the bottom of their souls.

They were so happy you were there.

 Nothing anyone said mattered anyway.

You’re their mother and that will never change.

They prayed for you all these years to protect

 you and to show you the way back

 To them, Even for just one day.

It did not matter to them.

 All they need was time to say

Mom we can’t live without you another day.

Where do you go from here?

They got the chance to have their say and then

God took them away to the heavens up above. 

All the little things you’ve missed

The times lost in the past.

 Can never be done again?

No more I love you or time to share?

Where do you go from here?

As you begin another day,

 Without seeing their precious faces.

Remember where you use to be.

 Why God let you see just for a little while,

 What they needed you to be.

So while you go on through your days

 Remember their smile.

Remember the way they loved you

even through your hardest days

when you were not there to be

The mom they needed you to be.

But Remember you got the chance,

To make it right and clear the past.

Now you got their final days

In your heart they will” Forever”  be.

For one day you will see them again.

Walking hand and hand in the heavens above.

 Forever you will be!

All you got to do is stay sober and free

From the life you once knew. 

Then your final Dream will come true.

See you know where to go from here.

Toe Tag

Toe Tag

By: Ramona Coulter

August 12,2007

 Toe tag read,” Jane Doe”!

She laid there lost and all alone.

Another victim lost to the Game.

In the ditch was where she was thrown.

“No Regards” ,

She was a mother or had a family at home.

Just because she chose this life.

 To be a prostitute instead of a wife.

To be a dope fiend instead of a mother.

The mention of her death did not even matter.

No one even cared about her pain .

The agony.

The torture or even “Her Name”.

On the side of the road was where she laid .

Lost and all alone out in the rain.

No one even cared how this came about? 

Who were the ones that hurt her and threw her out?

How many days did she lay there lost? 

Why was death her final cost?

 Every things jumping once again.

On the corner were it all begin. All new faces lost and alone.

 Which will be the next Jane Doe to go home?

Note; Who cares? Do you Care?

I am the voice for the Lost.  I Care!

Tears & Pain

Tears & Pain

By :Ramona Coulter

May 10, 2008 (11:27am)

              Tears run deep and the pain is wide.

Shadows form from the past.

No time to go back.

No time to ask.

So many questions not explained.

Nothing will ever be the same.

Nights are dreary and the days are long.

The tears run deep and the pain is wide,

 Without my sons by my side.

“Good mornings, I love you, it’s I,

I’m here, forever mom you and me.”

“For Real!”

I just need to see you one more time.

 I can’t live without you in my life.

Were just little things they would say? ,

 That I miss every day.

May 13, 2008 (11:13pm)

May 13, 2008 (11:13pm)

You know that the littlest smile or the soft voice of your children and the I love you, Mom  and I need to tell you something or I just need to see you watching them together sharing and laughing and telling the dreams of their lives and how much that they need you in their lives no matter what the past was like or what you were or what you did and the little time that you have had with them in their lives to this point it never seems to over take the need of their mothers’ love. They have forgiven you and still love you and need you in their lives forever. Then you finally think you have your children and nothing in the world can change that. Your life is perfect. The everyday calls the simple I love your mom or I need to see you or can we talk. I never want another day without you For Really Forever Mom! Them sharing their heart aches and their smile and the secrets of their hearts with you. Their lives are so perfect with you in it regardless of what is going on in their personal lives. Nothing can take it away after a wonderful day with them 19 and 16 you realize that you wished you had done things right many years’ ago causes these times are so precious to live without. Then, we will be right-back, and we love you. Awakening to the sounds of police radio and that knock on the door. You know the one that you never want to answer. Cause then you will know that the precious memories of their final few months and only a few tears of their whole life and some pictures  are all you have left. Once you open that door. To get the fatal news both your sons were killed in a horrible wreck and there was a fire and you cannot even see them. Sounds like a horrible dream huh but the truth is it happened to me. The anger the pain the rage and the lose of not one but two young lives are gone and I cannot ever have the dreams we shared and the plans or even the simple I love you, mom For Real! And their  beautiful smile. Are gone forever?

My Sons

Tuesday, 08 April, 2008

1:04:34AM

                        My Son  as you enter the kindom of heaven at this early age.

                        I hand you to our Lord to take your proper place.

                        I want you to know that I love you forever and a day.
                        I cherish every memory  

                        and my time with you. You are a precious loving Son. 
                         You love me through

                        every thing.you believed in me to your final days. 
                         Now as you take this journey

                        with your brother by your side.  
                        Remember the last words that you said to me, "We

                         will not live another day apart for you are forever carried",within "Your

                        Mothers Heart"' by my side you and me.  
                        Even though your in heaven and I am  here on earth. 

                          I will forevever keep your memory alive through out the ends of time.

                        Now  as I close this note to you, 
                          To the Moon and Back  and the Heavens too. You are

                        my Angel and my best friend I love you my son that is

                         forever and there is no end. Love Your Mother
                                               IN MEMORY OF 
                      CHRISTOPHER GREER & NICHOLAS COULTER